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Right now, I am informing you that i have created a new blog, which is also my personal blog and the the Official Site of I Write 101 .

My new blog i made is just actually have the same concept like here in wordpress…:)

So if you have time to visit it, just enjoy and have fun reading more writings!

Thank you guys and more blessing fro the Lord!

Eleazar Descallar Calixtro – Author/Administrator/Creator

Ewan ko, pero sa tuwing naiisip ko na sana, hindi nalang ako lumaki at naging “matured”,  sana wala akong mga kasalanan. hahaha

Hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit nangyayari ang bagay na ito sa buhay ko; magulo, mahirap, makasalanan at puno ng mga pagsubok. Alam ko naman na ang lahat nang ito ay makakayanan ko rin, pro ang hindi ko lanag maintinhan eh kung bakit minsan, hind ko makayanang labanan ang tanging kahinaan ko sa aking sarili.

Masaya naman ako sa buhay ko, masaya na ang buhay ko ay kasama ko ang Diyos. Mula sa aking pagtulog at pagbangon, Hindi ko naman mkalimutang pasalamatan ang Diyos sa mga bagay na naibigay Nya sa akin. Masaya ako kasi sa buhay ko ngayon, marami akong mga kaibigan, marami akong kakilala at nagmamahal sa akin. Pero, mas naging masaya ako noon sa aking pamumuhay, kahit bata ako eh masasabi kong na-enjoy ko ang aking pagkabata.

Sa pagdating ng panahong tila akoy tumatanda na at nagkaroon na ng isip, maraming bagay na ang alam kong gawin, mula sa gawaing bahay, pagta-trabaho, gumawa ng mabuti at kahit gumawa ng hindi mabuti. Sa edad ko ngayon, marami na rin akong na-eksperyens, marami na akong nalalaman, marami na rin akong mga natutunang bagay na minsan ay gingawa kong inspirasyon at pagbabahagi sa ibang tao na alam ko naman sila’y matutulungan ko.

Eto, sa tuwing may alam ako sa isang bagay, hindi naman ibig sabihin nagawa ko na. Minsan eh, natutunan ko ang mag ito base sa aking pag-o-obserba sa paligid at sa mga pangyayari sa aking paligid.

Pero diba, sabi nila may impluwensya ang ang paligid?? Sabi ko naman depende lang sa tao… Pero talagang ang riyalidad ay talagang riyalidad, habang ako’y nabubuhay sa mundo, sa mundo ng kapahamakan, kasalanan, kasamaan, at mundo ng maraming tentasyon, hindi ko maiwasang makagawa ng kasalanan, at na-realized ko, hindi naman ako perpektong tao. Kahit akoy nagsisilbi ngayon sa Diyos, hindi ibig sabihin, hindi na ako makakagawa ng kasalanan.

Dahil ba sa aking pagiging matanong, mapag-matyag, at pagiging observant eh, napupunta ako sa salitang “subukan ko nga”??  Siguro nga. Yun, hindi ko maiwasan na pagkatapos pala ng ginawa ko, magsisi ako. Pero alam nyo po, araw-araw, iniiwasan ko namang gawin ulit ang bagay na alam kong pinag-sisihan ko na dati.

Hay naku buhay!,kung kelan matanda na ako at marami na akong alam, saka naman ako marunong na ring gumawa ng kasalanan….

Talagang ganoon ang tao, pilitin man maging perpekto o hindi gumawa ng kasalanan, magagawa at magagawa pa rin nya ito,  darating ka nalang sa isang katanungang walang sinuman ang makakasagot kundi sarili mo, “paano ba nangyari yun o di kaya, bakit ko ba nagawa yun”….

Pero eto rin po ang masasabi ko, hindi naman masama na nakagawa ka ng mali (not encouraging you to do mistakes), minsan, talagang kailangan mo pang gumawa ng isang bagay na pagsisihan mo para sa huli, mtutunan mo kung paano ba ang maging maayos at mabuting tao. Kailangan mo pang masaktan at manakit ng iba, kailangan pa na may umiyak at umiyak ka.

Ang bawat nangyayri sa iyong paligid ay may dahilan. Ikaw at ako at silang lahat ay may kanya-kanyang bagay na tatahakin na sya namang binigay ng Panginoon sa atin.

Masaya na ako sa buhay ko ngayon dahil nakilala ko ang Diyos, hindi ko kailangang sabihing “kung maibabalik ko lang ang panahon”…. Ang panahong iyon ay nakalipas na, kung nagkamali man ako, kung marami man akong nasaktan at hindi nahingan ng tawad, alam ko na darating ang araw, maitutuwid ko rin ang mga bagay na iyon….

Pero dapat rin nating malaman sa bawat sarili natin na tayong lahat ay nabubuhay pa sa mundo.  Hindi natin dapat pilitin ang ating  na maging perpekto at hindi na gumawa ng kasalanan. “WE HAVE TO FACE THE REALITY!”

  “When there were times i was feeling so lonely and alone, i always talked to my God, i shared to Him my secrets, problems, hatreds and burdens… Some said God knows already, but i always answer them who cares? Its between God and me!”

I’ve always been a kind of person that hid my face, so afraid to tell the world, what i’ve got to say…

They always keep on judging me regarding my personality. Until, time came  tears falls from my eyes. Then i asked God about these things, He always keep on telling me this “You’re My son, you are Mine… I made you perfect as what i have planned. There’s no way to be depressed, they were just one part of your trials and obstacles as you live to serve Me…”

Then i realized, those people do not know my real story.

There were many reasons why i am so deter and happy as i lived here in the world.

Firstly because i know that my God is always with me, from that point, i know i live long and happily. He’s THE ONE keep on telling positive words, guiding me, teaching me and comforts me every time i feel depressed and lonely. I live to serve and follow Him no matter what, for God knows my future and holds my life. I know and i know that you know, the world is full of persecutions, trials, madness and even famines…but remember how David stood to face Goliath on a hill.

Second reason, because of my family who stands firm, giving me moral supports, financial assistance, foods and good values. (aside from God) My family is my inspiration of reaching my goals in life, as far as i know, im not yet done of giving back to them my helping hands.

Lastly. It’s all about my life. This is me and this is life….Every moment and very planned coincidences just all make sense… As i grow older, it’s not that easy as walking in plane path. I will stumble as i walk. But through these, one thing i always do when there were times i was feeling so lonely and alone, i always talked to my God, i shared to Him my secrets, problems, hatreds and burdens… Some said God knows already, but i always answer them who cares? Its between God and me!

Being alone is being  a lonely person, they said. Me? not always, sometimes, you have to be alone when you are to talk God, reminisce and think what should be done for what you are planning to do.

Remember that God is always there… Do not be depressed, do not let your worries, doubts and cares wins over your faith to God, instead listen to what God really wants you to do!

Life is so tragic. But in the end, life is so beautiful!

My say regarding this thing i think it don’t matter to any people might read this article. This is just simple as saying para sa akin lang!

Well, we all know nowadays that it is very common to us to hear about being populated in our country.. It also common for us to hear such rumors and facts that our country is one of the world’s largest populations.

QUESTION: Is it really true that CHILDREN are the reason of our poverty? Well, a lot of people says!!

Ang magiging sagot ko lang jan; “HINDI!”…I believe that every child is a blessing. You know what’s really the reason? it’s US, we people… Sa atin pong katamaran sa buhay.

Ngayon po, we are divided into two states (rich and poor), yung mga nasa probinsya,  hirap silang mkakita ng trabaho, what they’ll have to do is pumunta sa syudad, doon, maghahanap sila ng mapapsukang trabaho, since they are strangers to the place, they dont have any shelter and houses from the place they went to. Ang gagawin po nla, titira sa lugar na wala masyadong nkatira or  no establishments…(we called them ESKWATER). There are many people practices like that kind of things, kaya naman sa eskwaters area, doon mo po masasabing mahirap ang ating bansa…lack of foods, shelters , clothings and anything…Through these things, I would conclude na tayong mga kabataan ang dahilan ng kahirapan…pro hindi!! maraming pwdeng gawin para umunlad, the only thing i guess kulang is the attention of our government must provide.

In connection to this, since many people pretend and just say they dont know how “Natural Family Planning” works, i also believed  yung mga  mahihirap lamang ang tingin koy sumasang-ayon at papayag maipasa ang Reproductive Health Bill (RH BILL) and those people na medyo nkaka-angat sa buhay, sila ang usually na nag-di-disagree sa bagay na ‘to….

But mind you, if i would be given a chance to say me own opinion, i would really say, “DISAGREE…” I am not referring with such any religious views, what i  would like to share is just only for my side..

The only thing is always in my mind is “MALI EH..” Well, well, well… Do you know tthe word abortion? (i think so) – not really that, actually using contraceptives is a practice for abortion.

One question: “BAKIT KA BA GUMAGAMIT NG CONTRACEPTIVES?” -maybe i would answer “to avoid pregnacy…” hahaha,  you know what’s on the other hand is? ..another word to emphasized this…“to stop the baby from his/her birth!”

Dyan tayo minsan nkaklimot…Actually, using contraceptives are not realy the answer. We must learn to be NATURAL. Learn  from your limitations, know it, plan it naturally…:)

Hinde po isang past time, isang laro lalo nang hindi isang listiness kung tawagin ang sex. Kaya naman din, there are many people well specially the youths, teenagers even younger and not married couples, they practice sex already, of course in the first  place, they are not afraid to have sex  because they are using contraceptives…. Pero wala ka, hindi lang isa kundi dalawa…2 imortal sins…. do you want me to name it? 1st-  P.M.S. – The Pre-Marrital Sex, we all know that sex is only for married couple…2ndly-Killing the baby…

Now, isn’t it clear to you guys about this?…or is it still questionable for you if why there are many people called “the pro-life?” o yung mga taong ayaw sa RH Bill? Let’s come to think of it!

We should be wise in such a way we live the life. Mybe its just that, ANG MALI AY MALI, HINDE NA MAGIGING TAMA… sapagkat nakalipas na, kaya naman, we better do the right things instead of doung things right…

Pero, ang lahat naman ng mali ay may kapatawaran, pro tama ba na lagi nalang nating sasabihing “tao lang ako?” na kung alam mo naman sa sarili mong mali ang ginagawa moh??

We should not be harsh…Hinde kailangang magmadali na abutin ang ating mga gusto..:)

Every life. Every child is a blessing and a gift from our God, and we really have no rights to kill them… Please, let’s not forget about this..:)

If one child was born, there no such reason to say “He is an accident!”

-All these things became my daily routine, i can say that it so tiring dahil sa abnormal na schedule ng oras sa trabahoo.

Mula sa aking pag-gising at pagbangon sa aking kinahihigaan, lagi kong naiisip na sana “hindi na lang munsa ako naging 18 yrs old para hindi ko pa maranasan ang ganitong buhay.” But as  i tried talking myself (don’t think im a fool), i realized that i am just so lucky…Well, considering the fact that many people in this present time ay hindi nag karoon ng trabaho at hindi pinalad sa pinag aplyang kompanya…at ako? gigising na lang, kakain at mag “in” sa work….

However, not only that reason, bata pa lamang ako, i promised to myself na if ever i would not taking my college degree, i’ll make a way para hindi ako magiging pabigat, palamunin at maging dagdag pa sa mga problema sa parents ko.

As the commercial says on Nescafe: “para kanino ka bumabangon?” -For me, i’d rather do it not just only for myself but HONESTLY, para sa aming lahat na myembro sa family ko.

I admit, my salary is just enough walang labis walang kulang. Hini ko rin naman masasabi n a mataas ang saahod ko because somehow, nakakapag-bigay naman ako kahit kunting tulong financial sa parents ko…Masaya naman ako, somehow i heard them saying “THANK YOU ‘NAK!” eh alam ko masaya na rin sila.

I love my family kaya mahalo ko trabaho ko dahil i know, right in the future, mararating ko rin ang objectives ko sa buhay.:)

GOALS – Yan ang tanging nasa isip ko always, everyday and every time i wake up, but of course, can i reach that goal if i don’t have God with me all the time? of ocurse not, kaya naman, lagi kong kasama so Lord sa lahat ng bagay na aking tatahakin at sa mga decisions ko na maaari kong gawin sa buhay ko.

Simple lang naman akong tao, simple lang kami, nabuhay lang naman ako sa isang buhay sa maraming salat…salat sa pera, salat sa materyal na bagay and sometimes, nakukulangan din ako ng respeto mula sa papa ko (that’s another story)…pero ini-enjoy ko lang ang bawat araw sa buhay ko.

Masaya akong gumising mula sa aking pag-tulog, there were times though i say absent na muna ako, but the positive side always won. Well practically, sayang din naman ang araw na hindi ko papasukan kesa naman mag tamabay lang ako sa bahay the whole day wala pa akong pera to earn, hehehe….

Stable na naman ako sa work (kahit hindi kayo nag-tatanong), pero there seems an often times na nawawalan ako ng gana sa work and i almost forget the saying “Patience is a virtue!” , luma na masyado, but i guess, this is still applicable to those  people  na may pangarap sa buhay kagaya ko….

Time moves so fast, the you can’t even noticed it.

Don’t look at the clock on how slow it moves at huwag ka mahintay ng bukas na wala kang gingawa….Maganda ang naghihintay, pero mas maganda na habang nag-hihintay ka, may gingawa ka!

OBJECTIVES / GOALS / AMBITIONS to SUCCESS

Huwag kalimutan na kung wala si Lord sa buhay mo, hinde mo maaabot yan… Kung feeling moh, successful ka na sa araw na ito, bukas makalawa at sa iba pang araw, darating at darating pa rin yung araw na kukunin yan ni Lord!!

BUMABANGON AKO para kay Lord, para sa pamilya, para sa iba at pra sa akin!

BUMABANGON AKO DAHIL PINAPAHALAGAHAN KO ANG BUHAY NA PINAHIRAM SA AKIN!!

ikaw? para kanino ka bumabangon? ____________________________??

I know i may depart from somewhere else (time will come), and at the same time, she may be do.

The day i met her was a great day ever since in my whole life. Starting from that day, i never stopped looking forward to knw more of her. Everyday, every time i go to school, im always inspired and deter in reaching my goals and objectives in my life and on the othe side, thinking to be with her the whole time. Until the day she finally talked to me at last, i never expected it to happen, though. Somehow, i know in my mind that whatever she thinks she’s  gonna say to me is always expected. Great however, she told me that she also was looking forward of meeting new friends. I sigh, and just got so so speechless that became the reason she laughed at me. She asked me why i couldn’t speak, i just smiled and said, “I’m sorry, can we talk once again later…??” She said, “why?, well, ok.”…She walked out w/o any words. I was really sorry, i know that time was really a hard moment for me, i can;t talk, i cant speak and couldn’t even move my body considering that that girl is in front of me..oh, its hard, what must i expect? just said, anyway, next time…??

That was my happiest moment i think so, but, at the same time, my embarrassing moment, for a reason, i did not say what is really inside of me at that time. I guess she got discouraged and disappointed to me…i really think so.

Right after that day, im always making myself dumb. I think tha it was all my fault why she could not talk and even smile at me evry time we see each other. I was wrong of not making any move, even to introduce myself to her didn’t happen. Everyday, i felt so angry with myself, until the time came, the day of our graduation, i did not saw her anymore……

She’s gone already –The girl who gave me inspiration, the girl who’d made me deter and a fighter in life. Well, at least, i met someone made me happy and strong every time i see her face. She came into my life, suddenly, she’s gone. It’s like a bubble…

After, i graduated, i continue my studies in college. I never stopped thinking and putting and imagining her face in my mind, and these things became my daily routine every time i go to school.

Time moved so fast, when fortunately, i accidentally saw her…but i saw her with another guy, they were so sweet, holding hands with kisses…

I just bowed and think so sadly. How i wish to meet her again, yet, unexpectedly, “my boyfriend na pala sya….”

Wow!, how great, what a great surprise!

I went home, i cried, shouted, angry and asked nobody why it happened?!?! Am i that kind of a person who was so unpleasant? or m just one of these people was unfortunate in this kind of foolishness and stupid part in a life of a person..??!?

(you know what happened?) well…

It takes long hours for tears, and it took me a very long time and days before i moved on. It hurts a lot. Even though  she wasn’t mine…She wasn’t mine but my heart always says and keep on telling me that she’s mine….I don’t know how it happened, i laughed, i cried, is stopped!

Remembering back when the days she didn’t give a try to talk to me for the second time around, it means she didn’t liked me even..she hates me, she knows she can find a better person than wasting her time with me –these things, i don’t even realized…how stupid! and now, i am like a fool, a crazy person making my own fantasy…LOSER!-that what i deserved..

In that time, (2) yrs after i continued my study, after i moved on about what i found out…Another news i heard…that girl and her husband broke up, the girl brought her one and only baby..i know she could find no home, nobody and nothing…She’s alone and lonely after they broke up, one day, upon going to my work, i met her. What i did, just stay away from her, not to talk and pretend that i know her…She stopped me from staying away and try to talk to me, asking forgiveness… I ever entertained her, i refused to talk and then run away…

I went home, realized how the world tried to give  me a ridiculous part and moments in my life….

One big mistake has it’s one big lesson. That girl, is just one little part of me, some part in my life that would come and then one day, will be gone from me. I also realized, through that girl, that i am not to make a decisions so fast….I am not supposed to think twice, but i am supposed to think thrice…between of that 3 options I have, i choose the one who is in majority…

life is so beautiful, though, things would come at the time you don’t expected.

Right now, im so happy in my career, i got a beautiful job with a so much beautiful boss…

Thank God i met that girl

It was just a little time i was preparing for it, i look for a job vacancy anywhere and somewhere else out there. Yes, it’s not that easy, of giving yourself a break is no longer applicable for me at that time, i was so tired, I almost give-up of making follow-ups with my requirements. Then it was almost one month, i still don’t have any updates regarding my application for the company i was applying.

One day, i realized if why don’t i try to talk God and ask a help.

Then i told God, “Lord, if You would just give me a job, make me financially stable enough, so that i could give a percentage from my income to You Lord..”

And, just 2 days as far as i can remember, the personnel just called me up, that we, applicants should go to the main office for a little discussions………….I’m hired already!!  and at that time, i wasn’t thinking of how much would be my rate per day, i didn’t think of what would be work or position ether…all the was in my mind was Glory and blessing… and of course, i was thinking God all the time, and at the same time, so that happy for finally, i got work…

Right now,  i’m already in my one-year working in that company, still working and enjoying my job, received salaries every 15th and 30th day of the month…

Yet, despite of these, despite of all these things i received, i am considering it as a blessing of course, and a gift from my God, i would say, i am not that totally happy, there is one thing though i know  i don’t forget, but i am actually not doing it, what it is? — My Promise…a promise to my God,  the vow of giving my percentage that is really for Him, He asked it from me and i did say yes to Him, But then, until now, nothing is happening that way..I was just so UNFAIR, of being a liar to Him.

I don’t know, right now i still dont cre. There were times my mind always reminds me. I am not asking for an understanding, what am i saying to God is “I’M, sorry”, and asking for His forgiveness for failing y promise to Him

Giving and saying a “promise” will always trademark for me, when someone says “promise, i will” I am one of those kind of people who is like “tanga” expecting that that will happen. Heck? right, but mind you, I consider those people who would just sa “i will not promise, but will try”, these are my point of views…..

-We are jus human beings, yes i know, that’s why i’m much prefered for the people who would just do a try instead of saying a “promise”.

-Secondly, when someone says “PROMISE”, im gonna expect really it to happen, because;

-You know why? ok, letme just ask you a question, did God ever failed you from His promises?? when God promised, of corse He always do it. yet, maybe you’re saying that God is perfect  that’s why He never fails, yes it’s true, so, as for my side, the person who would use the word “promise” is obliged to do what he promised.

Now the bottomline is, if you know you can do it really, you are authorized to say the word “promise”. But if you know you can’t or MAYBE (not sure) you can do it, i would advice that you dont have ti say a promise, what amybe you should say is “I WILL TRY, I CAN’T PROMISE!”.

A promise is a word that even God used it, be careful of using this word, -PROMISE IS HOLY! oh, by the way, it is the word that symbolizes sacredness to the people who’s gonna married..:)

Finally i came back, and once again, posting and leaving messages here.

Wow!, For how many months and days since the last time i visited this blog, i am very despirate and so excited and at the same time thinking of what to say and post. hahah, anyways no matter what it is, i would just say that another something new and something that is refreshing…heheh, Well, i just have to say that i missed all of these, i mean blogging, reading comments, and sharing new experiences of my life…

For how many days, marami na ulit akong naranasan and at the same time, learnings into my life….Right  now, talking about my job career, well, im stable and i can say that am very blessed by the Lord. I am now in a provisionary position. -thank God.!

But you know what’s another thing i’d like to share with you….maybe ahm, next time…:)

Be blessed!!

If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream